Tell us a little bit about your story
Hi my name is Taylor Williams, I am 24 (almost 25 but we will keep that on the low) I live with my partner of 6 years, we have the most beautiful puppy dog, I am currently studying journalism at the University of South Australia, and I work casual in a retail store. I have anxiety. I’m not afraid or embarrassed anymore. My anxiety is part of who I am. I was diagnosed about 7 years ago and I have been on a journey ever since. I have seen a psychologist, counsellors, been on different anxiety depressants. At the moment I’m not seeing anyone and I am currently free of any medication and I’m living my life. It may seem like wow she has everything together but trust me; it has taken 7 years to get to this point of actually being able to live an everyday life.
What are some of the experiences you went through to reach anxiety?
After seeing my psychologist for 12 months, he suspected that some of my anxiety is from my past. My parents split up when I was about 16-17 and it was the hardest thing I’ve ever gone through. At the time I never really coped or let it sink in and feel the emotions as I was trying to be supportive to my parents and be there for them. Not knowing at the time it was effect me in my future. To be honest I personally really don’t know what the everyday cause for my anxiety is, and I’ve spend 7 years trying to find the root to my anxiety and nothing, so I’m just trying to not obsess over it anymore.
How long have you been battling with anxiety?
As written above, it has been about 7 years.
What/how did you do to seek help?
At the start I did nothing, I let my anxiety completely take over. Then after months of being stuck in bed I started to see my GP first and they referred me to counselling and medication. For me, my medication never worked it only made it worse but that’s not saying it won’t help some people. All this stuff never really did a lot, therefore my GP referred my to my psychologist and that was honestly the best thing that ever happened to me. Tim was my psychologist and he didn’t try and get rid of my anxiety as no one can do that, he taught me how to cope with my anxiety and introduced me to mindfulness; Mindfulness is the psychological process of bringing one's attention to experiences occurring in the present moment, which can be developed through the practice of meditation and other training. This is life changing, and everyday since when my anxiety is really bad or having a panic attack I use the techniques I was taught and it 100% helps.
What was one of your biggest life lessons?
I would have to say learning not to give up. YOU need to push yourself and you have to want a better life. Yes there is people for support but I learnt it’s 100% up to me.
How did you “find yourself”
To be honest I have found myself through my anxiety. I have been at my absolute lowest with my anxiety and I mean loosing 8kg and I weigh roughly 43kg, and I’ve came back out on top better then ever. I’m so proud that no matter how low I feel I can always pick myself back up.
What do you do to help prevent yourself from spiralling into anxiety?
Usually I can feel myself about to spiral so firstly I’ll use my mindfulness techniques. Then I’ll go onto relaxing myself, so taking a bubble bath or lying on the couch watching Disney movies. Finally, do things you love and surround yourself with the people you love. I’ll catch up with my girlfriends, or head up to victor harbour to see my brother in law, sister in law and niece, go see my mum or dad, go to movies, have a date night with my partner etc. anything that makes you happy and keeps your mind away from your anxiety.
What inspires you?
Writing – 100% I write everything and anything.
Do you have inspiring advice you could give someone who is still trying to find “themselves”
Give it time. I never thought I would be in a place I am now and it’s been a massive journey, but the journey is what has shaped me into the person I am today. Believe in yourself and love every part of yourself. Even your anxiety or any other mental health condition you may have. If you can’t change it learn to love it.
Thank you for reading. If you have any questions or want to follow my journey follow my Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/taylorjanewilliams/ or check out my blog at https://soulpurpose00.wordpress.com.