Besides depression and anxiety I wanted to talk about something else that has been on my mind lately… and that was my miscarriage. Now before you stop reading, I am not going to go into too much detail and I don’t want to make the focus of this blog about miscarriages. I want to bring awareness to the underlying issue… not talking about it/or other traumatic things. Once I had to let everyone know about my recent experience I had at least 13 people privately message me, telling me “no one else knows but I went through the same thing this year”.
Like every relationship, as time passes you slowly figure out the true colours of the other person. You know what they like, you know what annoys them, or what annoys you, you grow together or you grow apart. Well, it wasn’t until a phone call I made to an outsider last week that I knew I wanted to get out this toxic relationship….
After my recent video interview (link here to watch) with Mental Awareness Foundation I received a comment from someone saying that my interview was another "crappy inspiring video" they watched trying to find that light at the end of the tunnel, but there isn't one.... Now, I am not singling this person out because it was the first negative feedback I have received since launching this blog and I do not take offence at all. I wanted to let you know that I respect you and I get it! I used to be exactly like you.
It wasn't until I spoke to Casey from Livin to realize how big of a deal this was! I know that I haven't won or even made the finalists list yet, but it's pretty awesome to know that I am in the running to win an award for my recently launched blog. I have never been one to celebrate anything but papered achievements, but you know what? Today I am celebrating this journey. This journey and this blog is one I need to celebrate, it's bitter sweet to say the least.... it was born when I died.
This blog post has taken over 6 months (or maybe longer) to write. Why? Because I knew what I wanted to write, I knew what it was meant to feel like but I had to experience it for myself… no it’s not an orgasm, it’s something better! No disrespect to my amazing lover… this was just something I had to do and experience on my own….